do you afraid of dead?
Do you afraid of death? why?
For me, death is the most horrible thing. Not only my death, but also the death of people I loved. Well, I know that at the end it’s no use to afraid of death, no one lives forever. Anyway, I still afraid of death. I’ve been thinking for quite a long time to figure it out why. At first I think what makes me afraid of death is simply because I don’t know what will happen after I die. Will I reincarnate to another life? will I see the angels? Is there really heaven and hell? What will I be, what’s gonna happen to me? Will there be something good or terrible happen tome after I die? Will I ever meet my beloved family and friend? I never can figure the answer of all those question. So actually I’m afraid because I don’t’ know. That "I don’t know" is the thing that I’m actually afraid of. That "I don’t know" means there’s not only good but also bad thing can happen to me after I die, and I don’t want meet any bad thing that awaits me in the other side. I wouldn’t mind if i must go to heaven after I die. I wouldn’t mind to die if I can meet again all those people I love. I wouldn’t mind if there’s joy waiting upon me when I die. But what if I must go to hell?What if I have to lose those people I love forever?what there’s only sorrow that waits upon me?
So you see the thing that makes me afraid of death is actually my selfishness. I wouldn’t mind to die if there’s only good things awaits me in front. But how can I be sure about it? cause there may also be bad things that stays to see me. That is why I’m afraid of death actually. Not the Death itself, but simply because I am selfish.
